Well, hello there lovelies. Seeing how it IS the 26 of December after all, it seems only apt that we should take time off to well, not reminiscent. but like, you know, just look back and reflect on life. 2011 started off funny; almost lost my life in NYC getting caught in the blizzard. started school with a bang; kinda sorta. rough semester, but it was BASKETBALL season and in spite of my hectic schedule (i went out ONCE in my entire semester), i had fun. met A, had fun while it lasted. got into trouble with the school with the whole debacle over a schoolmate. obviously made some HUGE mistakes that, you know, no words in my vocab could ever come close to describing how much I regret committing, and how crazy an impact it had on my life for the next 12 months. managed to get back the semester doing decently well, did summer school and aced the heck outta it. FINALLY got back home for summer. suhweet. and that was when I made my other mistake - posting the advertorial up. looking back, i was hard not to think about it in a very painful yet cryptically funny way. It was funny because in spite of what some may believe, I had be really sincere in what I did, and I really tried and thought i was going out of my way to make things right; to do things the way it should be done and not because I had to. the weeks after were rough - the accusations and investigations, the sheer uncertainty gnawing away inside of me the first round of guilty verdict, the failed appeal. of course by that time, I had do deal with yet another facet - the scholarship board. It was THE MOST challenging point of my life, no doubt. just staring at the possibility of losing everything i had ever worked for, because of a mistake that I had made because I was careless. but i guess SOME good came outta it. the outpouring of support from certain individuals and groups ranged from being absolutely unexpected to meaning the world to me. truth be told, I could never had made it by without these people. the flight back was, well. unpleasant. 12hrs to germany, 12 hours to singapore, must have cried a good 3/4 of the way. prolly broke the mother's heart when she picked me up and saw my eyes swollen beyond words. spent the next few days at home just, well, broken. tried so hard to pick up the pieces and get my life back tght again, but it was hard. waking up everyday was just plain painful and i spent most of my days in a daze. there was of course a time when a someone talked to me, comforted me and made many promises. but as we shall come to, it was all a lie. met the scholarship board, started work at Gushcloud. that was definitely the turning point in my past 1 year. there was starting to be some resemblance of some form of routine in my life, some meaning, i was busy, learning, getting work done. and being surrounded by friends made a heck of a difference. of course all this time i waited for the verdict from the scholarship board. that was hard. everyday someone would ask me about it, and i'd have known nth more than them. then one fine afternoon in the midst of a very happy skype conversation, A decided to leave. and so i was. well. alone. she found a new boy couple days after, which broke my heart even more. and that, was the 2nd biggest dip in this whole period. and then just somehow, just SOMEHOW, as though God decided that the last hit was a little too hard and i needed a break, by a whole series of incidents, i met K. and that was the 2nd biggest turning point in my life. it's just crazy because for 1, the circumstance underwhich we met was just like zomgwtfhuhnowayy! and of course it happened right after my heart mega destroyed and just GG-ed so after i first met her at the office for meeting, i was going on and on about how Im just gonna try and git her jus cos i was dumped and shitholed but of course at the back of my mind i was just talking shit. I mean im not gonna going into the details and al, but K was K! and she was HOT AS HELL. and I'm like this lame kid who didnt have much, didn't look like much.and well, just wasnt much but there she was all smart, funny, and she just took care of my pathetic lil ass. and things just took off I guess? it's just been great fun, and i've been just ridiculously happy. of course some weeks back couple of us had a bust up, and it just brought to light some underlying tension within the clique, but im glad it's all sorted out now. so coupla days back I heard from the board then i was gonna keep my scholarship, albeit with certain conditions, most of which were perfectly reasonable while some of em left me quite. i dunno. I needa figure that out and talk to em about it. so yeah. that's how its been I guess if anything matters, it'd be some things I took away from the year: 1) Control. You. Temper. It's true. I can be hot headed. and look where it got me. My temper literally dragged me into the depths of hell and continued to pound at me when I tried clawing my way out.The truth is our temper muddles our minds and make us make decisions we normally wouldn't. Decisions which can quite literally take your future away from you forever. I went through most of that, but I was just lucky enough to escape right at the end. It DOES NOT matter if you were a douchebag or even if the other party was just a total shitfaced asshole who made your life unbearable. Your sense of what's right and what's wrong may rear its head. Your pride might be too impt to let go. but you must, simply because of you make THAT mistake, most of the time the world isn't kinda enough to understand you. 2) Friends = Ohana I KNOW. its cliche. Friends are family and impt and blah and blah. But as someone who just went through what he went through, I think I'm in a good position to talk about how impt having real friends are, because I know for a fact that if not for some people who "held my hands" through the worst and most painful period in my life, I wouldn't be writing this right now. There were the people who didnt say a single word and just watched me cry and bitch and whine. there were some, in spite of me not believing in God, always made sure to come to me personally to offer his prayers. there were some who helped me talk to the different administrators to help me figure stuff out. There were some others who smacked me up and forced me to wake up and get back on my feet. If you know who they are, keep them close and don't ever let them go. 3) Family There isnt much to say except that throughout the entire debacle, my family was always ALWAYS supportive of me. never got mad at me. never blamed me. never put me down. Mum did everything she could to help me and make me feel better. My favourite woman forever :) what a boring and drawn out post. regardless, if you have some spare time today, take some time off and do what I just did. you'd be amazed at how much you've been through, how much lessons you've learnt, and how much tougher you've grown. in the mean time, Merry Christmas, and A Happy New Year. | 
